so here'S the deal besties and swag gamers, while we might be putting a brave face in our announcements and on the steam page, we are not, or have been, in fact doing fucking okay !! =w= !! and have been working really hard to get access to healthcare and struggling to eat and drink properly every day and getting the support that we need thank you so much to the friends who have been there to support us and there to help us through all of this and have been there to console us and make us feel safe in our attempt to become a person and not just an amalgam of automated trauma responses and shutdowns and not just a machine pushing itself harder than it can and constantly being in a state of anxiety and in a daze, in a fog its been very difficult to finally start discovering and experiencing who we are facing a lot of denial from ourselves and from people around us its been very difficult to finally be aware of how poorly we are treated and how impossible it is to ask for and access help how entire support network and friends all gone and abandon and cause further trauma when in distress and need help being in distress makes people uncomfortable and so we try all different types of way to say things without making people uncomfortable by being vague and then they'RE not uncomfortable since they dont get the message and we dont get help it has been so fucking weird to become aware of, they start thinking, oh, we'Re having one of our tantrums or bad times, and may use bad words, and it will pass, with no one attempting to understand the meaning, have to figure out how to talk to people in a way that it doesnt bother them, they can ignore, and then they stop complaining, and you stop losing your fucking mind with anxiety about being abandoned for saying the wrong thing again, same pattern same trauma over and over again, have to learn how to be completely invisible, while in a state of constant anxiety and panic and sense that everything is fucked and done and over and you fucked everything up at all times and be like, a person, able to make mistakes, be mentally ill, to exists, without bothering those around us, being told over and over, that it'S fine, that we dont have to apologize, and to find out who we are under all that trauma and all of those defensive mechanisms, and how far from done we are, and how much work there is to be done, but to finally like, be a person, at least, in the eyes of a few, as who we really are, and those people, not disliking what they see, and not proving all of our fears correct, and being patient and understanding, giving us the space and the time we need, to stop making our fur big and hissing, by not putting us into a cage when we do hiss and make our fur big, and giving us some space, and realizing that we don't bite and do calm down whoops, sorry for trauma typing !! it comes out sometimes !! >w< !! existing really is like walking on a metaphorical minefield at the moment so um so sowwies game delayed teehee ~ no consequences, pweeze ? !! >w< !! will keep working on game of course !!! its very important to us !!! but um yeah mommy's been have a pretty hard time sweethearts thank you for being so swag and so patient !! can'T wait to show everypony the results of all of our hard work and and that people will like it (our game !! >w< !!) and have a good time !! !! >w< !! but also will be patient with us and allow us to recover game will obviously be better as a result of all of this teehee !! >w< !! bye bye take care !!! hope you are becoming a swag person, we've changed a lot over the past few years, and we expect, so have you, and the world around us. good luck out there Hope you drink water and eat enough food, and find people who really care about you for who you are and cherish them srry again for game delay !! >w< !! pweeze no upset !! >w< !! byebye see you later !!